You have to practice meditation every single day of your life until the day of the rapture or your death!!! Who cares if you suck at meditation, the point is to just to continue in its practice and you will with the passage of time just start to learn a few things about how to just be in the moment. But again it just takes time. Don’t expect anything, just expect that you are going to be commited to practice you are going to be determined and then let the chips fall where they may!!! But yes, yes, and another yes for the fact that meditation takes time it just takes practice. So hang in there consider it a victory if after the first month you are still practicing meditation you have more victory than 90 percent of humanity who just gives up. So be strong!! And we are all pulling for you in this quest that you must do alone.